I just moved. Perhaps to a lot of people’s dismay except mine, I moved out of a convenient place and joined a startup. Thanks to my habit of keeping everybody’s contact information, I was able to get back to an opportunity I previously declined by sending in a carefully thought email at 1:10 in the morning.
The idea had been playing around in my head for quite a long while. I knew that I wanted it and that it was possible but I was having second thoughts. It was not about conformity in a country where most job seekers go for the big names that obviously offer big compensation and benefits; I know how to get along well with people but I’ve never really seen myself as a conformist. It was that fear of committing a bad life changing decision. It’s always easy to know what we want but we can be blind of what we actually need. As much as we don’t want to admit it, our passion can indeed disable us from seeing reality. And with people depending on you, you can’t afford to make a terrible mistake.
But tell me that I’ve cracked up as much as you want, I’m going for what I want than what’s convenient this time around.
Contrary to what most people might think, I cannot really consider myself as one of those passionate people who want to be their own boss by starting their own companies and selling their ideas. While I find it admirable, at the very least I can say that I’m not there yet. What I do think is that I’m a creative; that I have a passion for creating things that will justify my skills, talents, and overall worth. Unfortunately, along with other concerns, I’ve never seen an avenue to practice such creativity in the companies I’ve worked for. Everything was already conveniently laid out for you to even bother to sit down in silence and ponder on things for an hour or so. For every trouble you encounter, all you need to do is pick up your phone or send an email and somebody will tell you what you MUST do which obviously discourages a thinking culture. That works for a lot of people I should say, but not for me. You can even say that I love discomfort or that I’m paranoid of losing my brain.
Andy Grove is often credited for the motto “Only the paranoid survive.” While I’m yet to find that out, I think I can settle with “Only the paranoid get to learn continuously.”
This is the second weekend after I’ve joined a startup that’s a couple of years old, and I should say that everything is doing great for me. The action has never waned since day one and I expect things to be the way it is now for the rest of the coming months. It has been by far an enjoyable experience especially for the fact that I got to look back into computer science theories in my first week and am currently working on a challenging algorithm. The environment is devoid of the unnecessary formalities and strongly encourages collaboration that in turn requires everybody to actually think. Although we are not a bunch of exorbitantly smart people and still lose our minds analyzing a scientific equation, I could say that we welcome the challenge with little trepidation.
People may have different opinions regarding matters like these. But above all, let’s pray and work for the things that will make us happy. -aB
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